Got a knock on the door during my 5th period today - an office floater to look after my class while I go to see the principal. I figured (correctly) that it was my summative review, since it is overdue, and the principal was eager to complete the paperwork on my final observation last week.
I was right. And wrong at the same time. The review was basically:
You are a first year teacher with the County (which means they treat me like I don't know anything, require me to go to "new" teacher development), but you hold a professional license, so we expect all your performance to be in the Advanced area. The principal had scored me Proficient in all areas, except for two. These two had nothing to do with classroom observation, but stem from incidents where he was told I said things, felt I was too loud or spoke improperly to students, and those areas were marked Unsatisfactory.
Long story short, he is forwarding my file to Human Resources with a recommendation of "Non-Renewal" which in effect means I am out of a job. Again. Spoke briefly with my mentor teacher who wants me to gather my observation reviews (which are all rated A or B, and should jibe with the rest of my review) and talk about my options.
I am kind of numb. Not sure if I am relieved to not be a teacher (part of me is), anxious because I have 3-4 months to find a new career, or just completely apathetic until things sink in. Right now apathy holds the day.
argh
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