Avoidance

I knew I hadn't been back here in a while, but to see my last post was Monday means I am slipping. Maybe subconsciously, dunno. Lots of interesting things going on in my life, thankfully nothing too major.

Therapist has put me on a less than weekly schedule now that I have shown some progress in not taking on the problems of others. Big high-five there. And I can tell when I am doing it, too. Still get frustrated, but at least I can allow the more rational part of my brain overrule the emotional, end-of-the-world panic part.

School was school. The principal observed me on Tuesday, and the class was well behaved, which meant my lesson didn't fill the whole class - I usually build in about 10 minutes for classroom management. Wednesday I took every class to the science lab for measuring shadows to find the height of an object. We would have gone outside, but it wasn't quite sunny enough for shadows. Again, I didn't stress when the kids didn't quite cooperate or do as much as I had hoped. Any progress is good progress. And the principal dropped in, and asked me to finish the paperwork from the day before so we can meet and discuss the observation. I think he was under time pressure, since Thursday he asked me to stop by before I left (which I had to exercise positive thinking) and we went over the observation. It was fine, made me more hopeful that things will go well in the next year.

On the family front, older daughter lost her job cooking at the Cheeburger Cheeburger in Brooklyn. Not her fault - it seems the owner/manager has been letting a lot of people go, to replace them with newer hires (not a money saving thing, since she was making minimum wage), but with her he never told her she was fired. She showed up to check her hours, had none, and then was told. She may have even worked a shift for them after they had "fired" her...pay is in dispute, but she has some native Brooklynites on the case. She has also fired off a very well written email to corporate headquarters, letting them know how this franchisee is affecting their brand image. Or her godmother's fiancee could explain it to them in a different sort of language - he is my age, over 6 feet and works for Sanitation. 'nuff said.

Easter tomorrow. Got a ham. Torn about attending Easter Vigil tonight, but will probably go, as I have a streak going that I don't really want to break over the current malaise in my life. Haven't missed a vigil since I converted, and next year I might feel much more positive about religion.