Not just anxious, or in discomfort, but unable to be comforted. My brain knows that things are OK, my body tells me that I am in panic mode and have to get out, get away. Grocery shopping almost didn't happen, with a 5 minute pause in the ice cream isle just standing and breathing trying to calm down. Got home and curled up on the bed for four hours. Chemical X was no use - took it before I even left the house.
Why today? Am I feeling the stress of the week creeping back? This week should be better, with Wednesday technically "off" for the jury duty appearance. Is it because I have veered off of my scheduled lessons, to start teaching to the test? Is it because I haven't made a plan for tomorrow, or this week?
I did grade all the papers, and in almost every case the students have showed me that they learned (according to this TCAP style assessment) what I taught. Retention may be a different issue. But it is a small success, both me grading them, and entering them into a spreadsheet, and them doing better than I expected. This Wednesday they will get a couple more, then, since grades need to be entered by the end of the week, we will go into review mode, and I will try to introduce the clickers in class.
I don't like days like today, when I could/should be relaxing, and instead am coping with panic and headache and frustration.
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